You Are My Sunshine....Happy Anniversary, Susie

Dear Sue, There ia so much I want to tell you, Sue. Happy Anniversary. 50 years, Sue...Sunrise, sunset, swiftly flow the years. One season following another laden with happiness and tears.(from Sunrise Sunset, Fiddler on the Roof) Sue, it wasn't a resort where we were all away for a few days but we were all together in our children's homes and everyone was interacting with each other and well you would have kvelled (rejoiced) and yeah, Sue, you would have cried tears of joy and graittude. When I returned, a dear friend asked me what you would have been wearing and I told her a flowered dress. She asked me to dance with you and as you and I hugged each other in our hearts we celebrated the beauty which we built together. The friend then brought out champaign glasses and we toasted with sparkling lemonade the love we shared that built a sacred family. The friend then surprised me (how she knew this I will never know) with Elite Chocolate from Israel that was our favorite. Remember it, Sue, the chocolate that explodes in your mouth. I never knew what it was called...did you know it was called sparkle? And the friend reminded me you would have held up your engagement ring and said it still sparkles. Sue, I don't know what to say to you. I can't begin to tell you how much I miss you and how many tears have flowed in the past three weeks since our anniversary. But tonight, something happened while I was driving and the waves of grief almost overwhelmed me until the waves of love pushed out the grief and turned my tears of sorrow to tears of happiness. As I write this, there will be those who are reading this who will be worried about me, but Sue, please tell them I am okay. I was listening to the radio and you will never guess which song came on the satellite radio. One of our granddaughters sang this...I hope our children will read this and remind me which one sang it. But as you listen to these words and read them if you are able to, please know that this song was the strongest trigger I have experienced since that fateful day of April 2, 2025 when the aorta burst and your big heart filled with kindness couldn't sustain this occurrence. G-d, Sue, I miss you so very much and I hope you can somehow experience the sentiment of these words which I have paraphrased from the song, "You are My Sunshine." . You are my sunshine, my only sunshine You make me happy when skies are gray You'll never know, dear, how much I love you Please don't take my sunshine away The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping I dreamed I held you in my arms But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken And I hung my head and cried, I've always loved you and made you happy And nothing else could come between But now you've left me and your absence Has shattered all of my dreams [Chorus] You are my sunshine, my only sunshine You make me happy when skies are gray You'll never know, dear, how much I love you I hope my sunshine will reappear And here is a beautiful version. (for those reading this, please click the link or put the link in your browser. Lullaby lyrics: You Are My Sunshine BabyCenter https://www.babycenter.com › Baby › Baby Sleep Guides Mar 27, 2024 — Sue, I don't know what the future will bring. I have been challenged to live in the world that is and not the world that ought to be. In the world that ought to me, I would not be writing this. We would be snuggling on the loveseat. In the world that is, I sit and I cry and I laugh and I think about how you, Susie Sunshine, were my sunshine and how your love and kindness chased the clouds away. I love you. Happy Anniversary! Bruce

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